Change

Change takes over as we grow toward what we will become.....

Those people who we have come to know and love will eventually grow toward a future that we cannot even imagine.....

What happens to friendships when the bubbles fades away? Who do we become when we are challenged to become our own personality? We are not the same but we can be more than we are....Love the person that you have come to know, but love them enough to accept the changes that are taking place in their lives....

Though at times it will be awkward to speak when we havent spoken in so many months, just remember that we are always friends till Jesus comes and we are together for eternity....

Hope shines in the future for those who are seeking after the Lord's Heart....

~*Desiree*~

New Outlook

Well the summer has been awesome! =) I'm working the the FCG Kitchen this summer and so far it has been tiring but very rewarding. Pressure Points meetings have been very interesting and have really helped me grow in my relationship w/ God! The summer is half over and already I'm beginning to feel nervous about college life at the BI. I just dont know whats gonna happen and that makes me feel like I have no control over my life. Well God knows what He has in store for me so I'll just have to trust in the promises that He has made for me. I've been thinking more and more about opportunities in missions and for right now I'm just praying that God will lead me wherever He wants me to be.

My birthday is in 7 days!!!! Only 7 more days of being a minor! =P Anyway, I hope that with a new year there will be new opportunities for God to mold me into the person that He and I both want me to be. I'm ready for change and God has definitely taken that readiness to the next level by really challenging me this summer! He has given me a new desire to reach the unsaved, and He has also been testing me through alot of trials over the past few days. If you think about me during the week, then I would just ask you to pray for me as I really dont know where I will be a year from now....whether it's in Ukraine, Albany, or Schroon Lake again.....I just pray that I wont mess up the plan that He has for my life.

Sincerely,

~*Des*~

After Everything Has Changed

I couldnt bear to see you that way....so hurt and so tired....so day after day, I told you everything about the real me....I hoped that somewhere deep inside that I would find a place in your world....that maybe I could even help in some way....but as it turns out....you dont need me at all.....

~The truth is always that little bit of cloud cover on a sunny day~

Each and everyday...everyone is either looking for someone to love and provide for them, or someone to respect and admire them.....

You remind me of a time when we were so alive..do you remember that...do you remember that? We cant go back to how things used to be now that everything has changed...

This is where I thought I could find the words to say how I feel each and every day. But to my suprise, I dont feel much of anything anymore...

The valley of the shadow of death

I will fear no evil

Take A Look

 

.......And then the world caved in, as we watched from our golden bubble of familiarity and security.......As good as murder they said.....As good as murder.......

 

Dont watch from the bubble......

T

Hey,

Lately I've been a little bit out of it with the whole bad health, friends with relationship "thingi's", and a whole bunch of stress. Along with a good dose of self-critiscism coming at me from my own personal demons, has come and overwhelming sense that I've made a mess out of things again. Not that any of this is an excuse for how I have been behaving.....I just need to get it out and say it. I'm sorry for not being as good of a friend as I have been in the past, and I'm sorry that my focus has been off in many areas. I suppose this has all come from the thought that I can control my life just as well as anyone. The thing is that no matter how much a life looks good on the outside, sometimes that just isnt the case. Sometimes I think that we try to do so many things, and have so many friends becouse we feel like we can forget about whats really going on in life. We can forget that our family life really isnt as good as we say it is; we can forget that we feel so alone behind closed doors; we can forget that we feel like we're living just to say that we felt alive once upon a time. Life can be so amazing at times. We can choose to see the good and nothing but good, or we can choose to see the bad and only the bad. Then there are the people who see both when they both need to be seen; I wish I was one of those people. How many times do we say that we want to change but never really do anything about it? Why is this such a used topic? We know that what we say and what we do dont match up, but we seem to conveniently forget about that when the time comes to evaluate ourselves. I cant believe how many times I have been guilty of this same thing! I've been so hypocritical of others and yet I'm still so guilty of the same things. School, church, band, basketball, choir, problems, sleep-deprivation, and stress......I suppose I've been trying to cover it all. Once I thought everything was controlable...for whatever reason, I've lost all hope in that idea. Something has to change, and I think now is the time to really change it.  

                                                              ~*Desiree*~